Wait, Weight?

I know and I am sure that I really GAINED WEIGHT these past few months. My primary reason is college. Yup, I blame you college. Our university is being surrounded by lots of food chains and restos; and also my college buddies are very "malamon" when it comes to food hehe. To be honest, before I did not easily noticed it until my family and close friends told me that I really gained weight.

"Ang taba mo na"
"Tumataba ka ah"
"Ang laki na ng braso mo"
"Magpapayat kana"
"Lumolobo ka"

And believe me, there's a lot more lines that I received aside from those.

I don't get the point why people have to ALWAYS CONSTANTLY remind me about my weight or fatness. OO NA TUMABA/MATABA NA! Happy?

As a psychology student (yesss, promote wahaha) I try to understand why they always call me fat. Maybe whenever they say that I am fat, they gain more confidence. Of course they will feel slimmer and smaller when they stand beside me because duh, mataba nga daw kasi ako.

When someone says that I look fat, I always try to reply with a smile. I know you're thinking that "sus, deep inside, nasasaktan yan o iiyak na yan." Sorry but nope. Why with a smile? Well, at least alam kong may napupuntahan lahat ng ginastos ko sa pagkain. Eh kung sa may pangbili ako eh, bakit ka ba? :P I love food, I really do! I mean, who doesn't?


I want to share a story related to my "katabaan". This happened recently between me and my close friend. So here it goes...

Me: Alam mo ba, ewan ko sa inyo ha, pero for me nung nag-gain ako ng weight, feeling ko mas gumanda ako, swear wahaha
Friend: Mas gaganda ka kapag mag lose ka ng weight *insert thumbs up emoji*


Uhmm, ako lang ba na-hurt? Wahaha. That reply of his really hurt my feelings (and fats). It sounded like that I can't be prettier or look more beautiful when I gain weight. WTF (excuse my words) Seriously, WTFF. Your beauty should not be measured AND WILL NEVER BE MEASURED by your weight! Trust me, I know and I saw a lot of beautiful plus-sized women. So I don't think any girl or any person should feel less beautiful because she or he is fat.

And this is not just about the people who gained weight, but also to the people who can't gain weight.I have friends who are really skinny and I'm sure they are also tired of hearing the words "magpataba ka naman" "kumakain ka pa ba?". People, they also try their best to look "better" for your eyes.


When I gained weight, I gained more confidence. I learned to love myself more. I knew that beauty is not limited to my body size and shape. Just like age, weight is just a number. As long as you feel good with your size, go and be happy. Because at the end of the day, it is just you, yourself, who really matters most. Yes, do listen to what people say to you or comment about you but  pay attention to the ones that can inspire you to become a better person. One should not feel less of a person just because he/she is fat or skinny. Show them what your fats and bones can do! Let's make this world a better place to live in *insert rainbow and unicorns* ☺️

#NicaBeatrizAt18

Before this day ends, I just want to thank each and everyone who greeted me and remembered my special day. You have no idea how much each greeting means to me. Thank you for making me special even just for a day. I decided to post this photo because, well uhmmm... for no reason WAHAHAHA BAKIT BA GUSTO KO EH! 😂 Araw ko toh, walang kokontra 😜 Again, Thank you guys! Love you all 💞😘 #NicaBeatrizAt18

10 (Not So) Fun Facts About me

Since I've been through a lot of stuff  these past days or weeks rather, I just want to share some Not-So-Fun Facts about me. It could be some sort of "warning" for others I guess (?) but hey, I just want to share these just for fun.

1. When you say something hurtful to me, I'll get hurt. A LOT. I'm a very sentimental person. I take the words, compliments, insults, and criticisms SERIOUSLY.
2. Don't test my patience. I do not like waiting especially for the things or people who are not worth waiting for.
3. I have trust issues. So don't be surprised if we're friends and I don't trust you.
4. Like what I said in no. 1, I'm a sentimental person. I like keeping stuff that has a lot memories in it. Even if it is just a receipt of a resto, I would still keep it.
5. I wouldn't mind if you keep insinuating me. But once I got tired of hearing those, I will make sure that you'll regret doing it.
6. Don't make fun of my feelings. If for you this is just a game, halika, doon sa court. Maglaro tayo.
7. If you want me, let me feel it. If not, just say it. I don't like my time being wasted on wrong people.
8. I take apologies sincerely IF AND ONLY IF you say or express it sincere. Text? PM? DM? Lol but no thanks. Sorry I'm not your typical modern-day girl.
9. If you're not going to say anything good to me or to other people, just keep your mouth SHUT. I swear. Or else I'll say something that can shut your mouth up.
10. I am not afraid getting hurt. I am afraid of what I can do to you after you hurt me.

Can I Just

Runaway?

Runaway from problems, happenings, bad vibes, stress, questions, hesitations... Runaway from almost everything.

Breathe some nice clean air and maybe, somehow, it can calm my mind and body. I do not want to indulge to situations that I do not want to be involved.

I am not scared though, I just don't want it. Not now. 

2015

My 2015 is one hell of a ride for me. There were surely ups and downs, twists and turns, and series of problems. But despite all of that, I am actually quite thankful for everything that happened this year for making me a better" person (I guess). I've been through a lot; stress, breakdowns, almost-depression (muntikan lang naman), heartbreaks, expectations, achievements, experiences, and a lot more. I also realized that some things are better not to be mine because there would be something better coming.

2015 was the year for my acads, career, friends, and family but not for my love life (so sad... Nah not really).


Acads
I got good grades before I leave high school (thank you teachers mwamwa) and also for my first term in college but I'm not really satisfied with my grades because I know I could have done better.

Career
17 palang ako kuma-career na?! LOL haha I find it funny for "self-proclaiming" that I already have a career. But to be honest, I really do consider it as my "career" (chos). And that is hosting programs and parties. I actually started hosting or being one of the emcees last year (2014) in one of our school programs. Then this 2015, we (me, Insao, and Lorena) hosted our batch's Graduation Ball and Aya's 18th Birthday. More gigs to come for us three!

Friends
Oh yes, FRIENDS. From all of the galas and unplanned HOHOL'S to having college buddies, I had a LOT memories this year with all of them. Here are some of the highlights: Birthday surprise for me by my Maksci friends and Besprens, EK with my Besprens, Tagaytay x Noreen's Birthday Celebration, DLSU Adventures of me and Mhey, Exploring DLSU with my college buddies, LRT Adventures with Bea and Noreen, Unplanned HOHOL sa bahay ni Denisse, Colevin's Blowout Birthday Celebration, and Jasmine's Birthday Celebration.

Family
I got the chance to spend more time with my familly. Because my pemily... My my... My pemily... Oh my gosh. JOKE wahaha

Love Life
Few heartaches but I'm already fine about it but it doesn't mean I'm already over it. CHOOOSSSS!


Thank you 2015 for everything most especially for the lessons and the memories. You've been very good to me. Again, thank you.

B&W

Black and White Portraits of Me

 

 This is what I normally do in my spare time.

100 Slam Book Questions

1. Advice for me. 

 Advice for myself? Hmmm, stay physically and emotionally strong

2. Any Name, u would like to call me?

Nica, Buu, Nica Buu, Buhay, Nicalooks, Nics, or Ganda

3. Are you proud of yourself? 

Pwede na hehehe

4. Best thing that ever happened to you?

 Being able to graduate high school.

5. Favorite color

Violet but I like pink so much

6. Dedicate a song for me

She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5

7. Describe in one word, Friendship is 

 EVERYTHING

8. Describe in one word, LIFE is 

Unpredictable

9. Describe your Daily routine? 

Getting ready - eat - watch TV - internet - eat -watch TV- eat - sleep

10. Describe what you feel like waking up on Monday morning. 

Blessed

11. Describe your soul mate 

*Sana pogi* wahaha maybe someone who is somewhat like me

12. Describe yourself in 3 sentences? 

Loud, Funny, Sweet

13. Do you believe in God? If yes then why and if no, then why? 

Yes because I have faith in Him

14. Do you believe in love? Why or why not? 

Of course I do because I'm a freaking hopeless romantic

15. Do you have boyfriend/girlfriend? 

No, I don't have

16. Do you like to sing in the shower? Which song? 

YES. Lay Me Down by Sam Smith

17. Ever caught a virus, disease or sickness? 

Is Dengue counted? If yes, then yep

18. Who was/were your crush on a TV character when you were teenagers? 

Chris Evans (Capt. America), Andrew Garfield (Amazing Spider-man), Chris Pine

19. Favorite Books? Why? 

Fifty Shades Trilogy (please don't judge me).
 I find them interesting and different.

20. Favorite Expression? 

My ever favorite "Nga-nga" face

21. Favorite Games

Tagu-taguan ng Feelings

22. Favorite Sports 

Swimming, badminton, and volleyball

23. Favorite Vacation Spots 

 Tagaytay, Nueva Ecija, Baguio, and Vigan

24. Gift for myself

Watch or charm bracelet

25. Have you ever fantasized about a friend's girlfriend/boyfriend? 

NO. That is just gross.

26. How do you feel when you talk to me? 

Talking to myself? Wahaha weird but normal for me though

27. I am your? 

I don't know how to answer this question

28. If Isomeone would be your slave for a day, what would you ask him to do for you? 

Bake me a red velvet cupcake

29. If you got a chance to ask me something about My Personal Life? 

To self: Happy ka ba? 

30. If you are an author, what book would you write? 

Libro ni Buhay (Book of Life) hehe

31. If you can invisible, tell what first things u do? 

I will follow my crush wherever he goes

32. If you could be the world leader you want to be, who would you be? 

I'm not sure

33. If you could get one superpower, what would it be? 

Being able to fly! So I won't be able to experience traffic anymore hihi

34. If you could meet one person, dead or alive, who would it be? 

My soul mate

35. If you give another chance to live ur life. What will you do? 

Do the things that I haven't done in my past life

36. My Name in ur Phone

 Nica Beatriz Buhay

37. My nature 

Mother (ano daw haha)

38. My weakness 

Worms

39. Nicknames people call you in general? 

Nica Buu

40. One thing that you Love the Most about yourself

Happy personality

41. Rate my life out of 10

6.5

42. Rate my happiness out of 10

7.5

43. Some negative points in you. 

 I usually keep what I feel and my problems to myself

44. Some positive points in you. 

I always try to look on the positive side of life

45. Someone who knows all your secrets? 

My Besprens, Mhey, and Victoria

46. Special talents? 

Breathing

47. Suggest a TV show for me to watch. 

Gossip Girl though it already ended but I really liked that show

48. Suggest a website for me to go to. 

nicabeatriz.blogpspot.com hihihi and zalora.com.ph

49. Tell me about three funniest friends you know in your life? 

Insao, Jeshua, and myself WAHAHA 

50. The best thing about you. 

I can be your bestest friend ever and bestest girl too :)

51. The thing u like most in your face

 My lashes

52. What are your hobbies? 

Surfing the net, watching TV, and listening to music

53. What else do you do in your free time? 

                     Alone in the room, lights off, earphones on, music playing, then letting my imaginations run in my mind.

54. What inspires you? 

My dream to make my parents be proud of me someday

55. What is the funniest thing that has ever happened to you? 

Nabugahan ko ng tubig si Jeshua sa mukha nung high school

56. What is the last movie you just saw and did you like it? 

A Seond Chance. Nope I didn't like it, I LOVED IT.

57. What is the one food that you would never give up? 

Red velvet cupcake

58. What is your all time funniest prank? 

It's a long story and it wasn't even a prank,
 basta si  Denisse napagtripan nun

59. What is your deepest fear? 

Screamers lol

60. What is your favorite activity and why? 

Uhmm eating? hehe I just love to munch and to nom-nom-nom

61. What is your favorite color and why? 

Violet because it has a royalty-ish vibe and it is very sophisticated

62. What is your favorite drink and why? 

Starbucks' Caramel frappe. I love caramel and coffee

63. What is your favorite holiday and why? 

APEC Holiday (because no classes for 1 week) WAHAHA joke

Christmas of course because I love gifts and food 

64. What is your favorite midnight snack? 

Cheeseburger (without veggies) and fries

65. What is your favorite movie and why? 

A Walk to Remember. It is very different from the normal romantic movies

66. What is your favorite place you have traveled to and why? 

   Tagaytay. I've been there for MANY times already.

 Pero di pa rin ako nagsasawa 

67. What is your favorite vacation spot and why? 

Baguio because brrrrrr

68. What is your least favorite word or phrase? 

"Wala akong naintidhan sa sinabi ni Sir/Ma'am"

69. What song/s do you play the most?

Lay Me Down by Sam Smith and Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis

70. What type of friends do you look for? 

Yung mga madaling pakisamahan and wala masyadong arte sa buhay

71. What type/s of music do you like? 

Pop, EDM, Party, and sometimes senti songs

72. What is the sexiest part in guy/girl for you?  Why?

For a guy, the shoulders. I'm not really sure why I find it sexy 
but I like nice and broad shoulders

73. What will be your reaction, when you will find out that your crush has a crush on you?

"Alam ko naman eh" hahaha

74. What would be the one thing you'd change about yourself? 

Weight

75. What would you name your autobiography? 

Ang Buhay ni Buhay

76. What’s favorite number and why? 

Seven (7) because I was born on the 7th of April

77. What’s the best advice you've given or been given? 

"You deserve someone better"

78. What’s your favorite food? 

Pasta or Pastries

79. What’s your favorite quote/saying? 

"Look on the brighter side of life"

80. When was the most peaceful day you have had? 

The last time I got sick i guess

81. Where do you want to be in 50 years? 

In my husband's arms

82. Which female celebrity would you want to take away for a weekend? 

Emma Stone

83. What is your favorite part of your body? 

My hips down to my thighs I guess

84. Which is/are your favorite cartoon character? 

Olaf, Phineas & Ferb and Spongebob

85. Who have been your closest friends in life? 

My Besprens, Girls Over Charcoal (squad), Victoria, Jeshua, 

Shurel, and Alexis

86. Who is your hero? 

No one (?)

87. Who is your secret crush? 

Myself... joke hehe

SECRET! :P Kaya nga secret eh 

88. Who would you most like to talk to? 

Besprens, Jeshua, or Mhey

89. Words about me 

Sweet, Caring, Funny, Sabog (in a good way)

90. Worst mistake? 

Trusting and loving the wrong people

91. Worst thing that ever happened to you? 

Getting my heart broken by the same person twice

92. Your dream? 

Make my parents proud, give medical discounts to my friends,

 have a walk-in closet

93. Your favorite actor or actress and why? 

Anne Hathaway, Cameron Diaz, and Rebel Wilson.

 They are just so good and funny

94. Your favorite artist and why? 

None in particular

95. Your favorite movie/s and why? 

Nasagot ko na toh eh -_- 

A Walk to Remember nga and Princess Diaries na rin

96. Your favorite song and why? 

Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis because it is sad but delivered in a lively way

97. Your First crush?

Chris Pine *play safe hihi*

98. Your Full name? 

Nica Beatriz Pascua Buhay

99. Your Romantic ideas/expectation about Love! 

My own Alden Richards or Clark Medina :)

100. Your Birthday?

7th of April